This is why......

I don't usually get close to people.. Never really tried to understand why.. Until now I really didn't care why.. Why invest so much of yourself into a friendship? It's usually pointless.. I'm not into the drama.. And I really DON'T like playing games with people.. Life is precious.. Everyday is an amazing day simply because we wake up.. We are alive.. And to be a healthy abled bodied person is special. So why make life complicated more importantly why make friendships complicated..

I do know we all have complicated lives.. But in the end what everyone needs to remember is "we all" do, including myself.. I have always found it fascinating how people's lives collide and how friendships are made through these random events in life. To think that just one different choice or action could change the random event of meeting another person is kind of crazy..

Think about that for a second...

I truly believe there is a reason behind how and when we meet different people throughout our lives.. Not all of these random meetings will have a deep significant meaning.. Nor will they blossom into a long term friendship.. These random meeting may also mean more to one of the two people involved and there is nothing wrong with that.. 

With that said.... one thing I cannot stand is when a person constantly tries to "test" the relationship.. To me that is playing games... Shows me that a person doesn't truly appreciate or value what is right in front of them. I don't have time for any of this.. I am not going to constantly waste my time trying to prove my friendship.. Doing so is emotionally draining.. 

The craziest thing is a true friendship should be everything but emotionally draining.. Friends lean on each other during the hard times.. Friends laugh together during the good times. Friends have mutual respect for each other.. Friends should not place themselves over each other (meaning they should not think of themselves as "better" than the other). 

Anyone that knows me knows I am a very trustful, caring, and loving person. Do I expect too much? Are my standards too high? I don't think so.. I do understand friends will not always agree on certain topics and they will have arguments.. The interesting thing about arguments/ disagreements between friends is how much the argument escalates and the things said during these arguments. The hurtful comments say a lot about the person. Acting smug and arrogant only shows that they don't care or they think that they have some kind of power over the other person..

People mistake my kindness and love sometimes and think that they can talk down to me or think that they have some kind of control over.. Or act as if they are better than me.. The sad thing is I am one of the truest friends a person can have.. I would do anything for a friend.. I would give someone the last penny in my pocket if they needed it.. I would and have let people move in and sleep in our bed while Brandon and I slept on the couch.. Literally I would do anything to help a friend even if it meant I had to give something up..

There is only so much I can take.. Especially when I constantly go out of my way to help.. It's disheartening to be treated horribly because of issues that have nothing to do with me.. and when I always try to help..

Most people don't think of me as an emotional person.. But I am.. My feelings get hurt over certain things pretty quick.. And if it keeps happening u are chipping away at the friendship. 

Sony

'twas a good battle.. Onward with life. As always I love my Sony Bravia TV.. And I will continue to love my Sony Bravia TV.. Sometimes things get out of control when there is no need.. My apologies to Sony...... They are the best of the best when it comes to TV (and just about every other product) so I have very very HIGH expectations when I buy Sony products... But that is not a bad thing.. I have come to expect greatness from Sony!!!! And I am positive I will continue to get greatness!

Dirk Nowitzki, Mavs & Free agency Season 2 Remember

By now anyone that has read this blog, follows me on Twitter or knows me in general knows I am a Dallas Mavericks fan. I have always been a fan and always no matter where my life takes me even if in another state or country i will always be a Proud Mavs fan! I grew up playing basketball and actually wanted to play in college but I tore the cartilage in my knee playing high school ball.

For all of these people that say Dirk should be traded or leave the team you have no idea what they are talking about. Remember D Wade/Miami had Shaq, Spurs have Duncan, Ginobli, and Parker with lots of role players. Kobe had Shaq, also had Gasol (don't even get me started on that trade) Kobe had Bynum, Odom And again many role players.

"King James" has also had plenty of sidekicks and role players but he has not won a thing yet. Why is Lebron so much greater than Dirk? Mr Garrnet did not win the title on his first team. When he went to the Celtica they eventually had 2 other big names and to date only Got 1 title! going back to jordan and the 90's he also had plenty of people to support him on the team!

Yes the mavs have brought in many pieces for Dirk and changed the the dynamics of the team many times but they have never had a player that attacked. A player that will take the ball into the paint and not be scared. The closest thing to that has been JJ Barera. Dirk has even changed his game over the past two seasons and u see him attack more often. i think Roddy B will make a HUGE difference next season because he is fast and fearless!

Smoking

I have been a smoker since the young age of 15. I still remember the first time. I was in grade school and all of us "bad" kids were hiding behind a building. One of the people with us, Jenny, had stolen cigs from her mom. The four of us shared our first cigarette. I wanted to throw up; that feelings was just not right in any way. For some reason I wanted to smoke again. Getting the cigarettes was easy because my mom smoked, and i worked at a gas station (the owner would sale cigarettes to me even though i was only 15).

Eventually, by the age of 16, i was hooked. I really do not remember how much i was smoking but that really doesn't matter because the damage was already done. Even though everything in my family history said NO NO RUN DO NOT SMOKE!

1.) My grandma had throat cancer and had a laryngectomy to treat the cancer, because of smoking. The treatment was to remove the "voice box." My grandma had to use one of those things that you place on your throat and she would have to sorta whisper words and this device would "speak" for her, not sure when this all happened because i always remembered her this way. Luckily my grandma lived to be 77 and became a very vocal, no pun intended, proponent for the American Cancer Society. The irony here is that she even visited schools to speak against smoking, my grade school included. She passed away in 04/2007.

2.) Growing up my mom constantly coughed and hacked up "her lungs." she had been smoking at a young age too but she even continued to smoke after what happened to her mom, my grandma. My mom has since quit smoking, she quit about 5 years ago. There are two reasons why she quit that will get to in a sec.

3.) In 2000 my mom started dating a guy, he was also a smoker. They dated for about 8 years. He actually died from lung cancer, again because of smoking. He was diagnosed around 8/2007 with lung cancer.. The craziest thing was everything was "normal" but his cough kept getting worse and then he started coughing up blood. He went to the ER and found out about the cancer. The gave him 6-8 months to live without treatment. He decided against chemotherapy because the treatment might extend his life for a few months. He instead went to a herbal/ natural approach. The "herbal" approach did not work. He died 02/04/2008. He went from being "normal" to withering away in 6 months.

Chat Room Roulette good idea turned bad! Chatroulette.com

The other day we were watching the South Park episode about Facebook/ Chat Roullette. We love South Park because of how they hit on current events and of course they went all out this time. Basically the episode was about Stan finally joining Facebook.

I have never really been a fan of myspace, facebook or any "social networking!" Mainly because i hate when people from grade school or people that I generally have no interest in becoming friends with again come out of the woodworks. Another reason I do not like these sites is because many of the people are inappropriate.

I had NO idea what Chat Roulette was, never heard of it, before this South Park episode. For those of you who are\ were clueless Chat Roulette is exactly what it sounds like. A person signs on, with a webcam, and then randomly paired with others from all over the world. So incredibly simple and cool but of course the idea is exploited and turns bad. On Chat Room Roulette if you are paired with someone you do not like you just hit next and someone else comes on. Technically you are never supposed to end up with the same person.